Lesbian Relationships

They are not easy. I made my gf go out yesterday after work and pick me up a note book. I didn't tell her what I needed it for untill I handed it to her last night after I wrote something in it. I've called this the relationship notebook. Everything is in it. Being that I feel she doesn't know how to talk to me without yelling it at me. I will no longer listen to what she has to say. She needs to write it down. She doesn't know how to talk to me. And to be honest, I don't think she's ever been in a real relationship before!!! And I don't know how I feel about that........She is 32 years of age and sometimes I thinks she's like 18 just because of the way she acts at times. Well most of the time. And I can't stand it. I am starting to 2nd quess this relationship and I can feel myself moving back from her and not wanting to be around her or with her at times. But then I let my feelings I have for her get the best of me and I try to work it out with her. But I am so honest when I say things. I am the serious one in this relationship she is just a child in this.. Thats just how I feel because sometimes I don't think she understands the real meaning if a loving relationship and it kills me everyday..